Today I Remember...

Here is to two years of marriage and 75 mores.

I remember the rehearsal, waking up early with nerves, laying in the bath thinking about everything I still needed to do.

I remember waking up the day of our wedding completely relaxed and confident in him. I remember arriving at the Tapestry House, hiding in the car until you went inside.

I remember getting ready. 

I remember putting on the most beautiful dress I have ever worn.

I remember peering through the window as the ceremony started. I remember holding onto my dads arm as the doors flew open. I remember the moment my eyes met yours.

I remember seeing your eyes fill and your lip quiver, I could not keep my eyes off you.

I remember smiling uncontrollably at the prospect of our future.

I remember laughing at the irony of your grandfather words "protect your wife" as a bee founds it way to my hair. You stood their oblivious.

I remember holding your hands and not letting go.

I remember taking communion, and you drinking all the grape juice!

I remember praying.

I remember our first kiss.

I remember walking down the aisle as Mrs. Sather for the first time.

 I remember cutting the cake.

I remember our first dance.

I remember you, the best decision of my life.

That day was the beginning to something amazing. You are my best friend, my protector, my provider, my comfort, my husband.

Time to Scrap

I am in love with digital scrapbooking again. I kinda got away from it for a couple of years. I cannot tell you how much fun I have had the past few weeks making digital pages, not to mention that one of my friends is just as obsessed with it as I am (always makes me feel more normal).

Here are my reasons why I love Digital Scrapbooking:

1. Cost, Cost, Cost. I can spend 5 dollars and buy a digital kit.
2. Make it once, have it forever. 
3. Reusable layouts
4. Time. 
5. They are so cute
6. No mess necessary  
7. There are countless photo gifts you can make

I use two program when it comes to digital scrapbooking. First and foremost I use MemoryMixer. I love the ease of this program. It is very simple to make layouts that look great. The other program I use is Photoshop. Photoshop allows for more custom looks. Here are some layouts I mimicked from my favorite sites ShabbyPrincess and Scrapgirls. 

The start of my scrapbook album for the First Year of our Marriage!

My Little Stinker, Elias

Now I must begin this with the clarification that I am VERY impartial to this child, being that I am his aunt and he is just so darn cute!!!

A beautiful day in C. Springs

Every chance I get I borrow my nephew. He is so much fun and to be honest allows me to get my baby/toddler fix, giving me the ability to survive the next few months, days or hours without the pressing desire to have children of my own.

Elias is the first and only child on both my husbands and my side of the our families. So you can only imagine how spoiled he is. We have been on some great adventures already. 

Enjoying an oversized beanbag

Elias first adventure to my sad little apartment in after I got married.

 We went to the dog park, played at the park and enjoyed hanging out together. The only toys we owed we received at our wedding, a camping bowling set. Not much but we made it work. 

When we moved to Cheyenne, I was able to "steal" my nephew for almost five days. We had so much fun. Cheyenne has a cute little spray park. 

Splashin' around

 Of course what could be better for a little boy than sitting in a big red fire truck. (Don't worry when he says fire truck no cussing is involved.) He could have sat there all night if I or his Uncle Jeff would of let him.

We always have to see the firetruck

Later that day we went to a friends house and watched the fourth of July fireworks. He was in awe!!

4th of July

Filling up the grocery cart

Now I must say if you have never been to the Denver Children's Museum, you are missing out. It is so much fun. There are so many different themed rooms, the child in your life will not be bored. There is a Vet room, Fire truck, Grocery store, dance, art, bubbles, and so much more. They even had rooms for infants to lay around and look at all the cool paintings. We could have probably spent the whole day there going from room to room, not to mention how much this play puts a full of energy and life toddler right to sleep.  

Checking the kitties ear

I cannot not explain how much i enjoy my time with my darling nephew. 

He is so precious and funny  

I love seeing my husband with him and watching him grow. 

He makes me excited for the day we choose to start our own family!

I will end on this super cute picture!

He loves music.

My Deliver Is Coming!!! Thank You JESUS!!!!!

My Jesus Has Risen!!! 

I cannot express the gratitude I have for my Jesus. 

I am so excited for the things he is doing in my life. 

I am so happy with all his blessing and that he loves me.

I am most grateful that HE died for ME!!!

Praise the LORD!!!

My Defender, My Jesus

I can't explain all the amazing things God has been working in Jeff and my life. I know without a shadow of doubt that I do not deserve all the things he has done. I am a sinner and fall short of his glory but through it all he continues to bless and defend me. He never ceases to amazing me.

All you need is Prayer

Recently I had a friend from the past contact me. She was one of my best friends in High school, but when we went to college we took very different paths. We remained friends and I asked her to be in my wedding. Shortly after the wedding she took me off Facebook. Weird such a small thing but today means so much. I was a little shocked because I felt that if anyone would be mad it would be me. She was not there for me when I needed her, yet I tried to talk to her and ask her what was going on. I knew she was in a very different place than me. I explained to her I was a phone call away. I knew that their was nothing I could do for my friend. I gave it all to the lord!

A year past and I got a text explaining she wanted to talk to me. I graciously said that sounded great, even with the little apprehension that I had.  When I began talking to her, she explained her coming to the lord and as she was praying she felt God telling her to call me and apologize. As she explained this tears ran down my face. My Lord in Heaven cared so much about me that he was my defender. It touched me so deeply because it was not something my heart was hurting over, it was not an apology that I needed but my father cared enough to let me know he will ALWAYS defend me and love me. WOW! This is the second time this has happen for me. A friend coming to me with an apology from GOD!!! I was so fortunate to hangout with my friend that same weekend and discuss our lives, where we have been and where we are going!!!

 Bridesmaids

To give everything to God is a daily challenge but when you do know that he will deliver, defend and love you more than another human ever can. I cannot say that it didn't hurt when my friends turned their backs on me and I can't say I thought about from time to time but when that happened I would remind myself of Gods promise! 

My Forever Friend

My Single Married Life...

Sitting home alone yet again. I never knew how hard this year was going to be till it started. Thinking about not getting to spend time with him till next Sunday is depressing. Despite that we have been very fortunate fot the City of Cheyenne to pay for Jeff to go to paramedic school. A year long intensive course that will provide him with many opportunities for growth in his career.

Jeff doing what he loves!

The schooling requires a lot of Jeff. He has class Monday-Thursday from 6pm-10pm plus occasional Saturdays. Which wouldn't be so bad if I didn't work Mon-Fri 8-4. He has about 50-100 pages of reading a day plus homework. He is also working which means he is gone for 24 hours three days a week. With at least one weekend day working. On top of all that he will be starting clinicals soon (12hr sifts). Which of coarse he will have to do on his days off. Finally this summer he will be leaving to texas for two and half months...

He will be in Austin, Texas

I continually remind myself it is for the best... better now than later, yet I lay in bed wishing he was next me, I eat dinner wishing for him to be there with me. Sometimes I wonder where I fit in his highly demanding life. We just bought a house and now I am alone in it minus my two dogs. I don't know what I would do without them!!!

Teo and Lia Sleeping in the Car!

I am looking forward to this year going fast. I am looking forward to having my husband all to myself. Until then I will support him, pray for him and be there when he needs me!

To Be Prepared...

Something that has been pressing on my heart is the idea of parenting. I want to lead my kids as Christ leads me. I know that parenting is a little ways away but still in the near future. I want to be prepared for that day... as much as I can be. I try to imagine what it will be like to have kids and how that will affect our relationship.

Dinner on our honeymoon

First we have started a one date a month plan. These date have to be something special that we don't normally do (we normally go out to eat).  They also have to planned. When we are parents we won't have as much alone time together. I want to make actively dating a priority. This month we went to dinner and bowling (something we have not done in years). Next month our plan is to take a cooking lessons, which I am supper excited about.

Jeff with Elias.
We watch him for extended amounts of time... about a week
I love it!!

Another way we are preparing for parenting is by discussing parenting ideas. I want us to be on the same page when it comes to parenting. Some of the ideas we have discussed have not been easy. We have been looking at how we were raised, the pros and cons.
These are some of the questions:

• What exactly does Christmas look like once we have kids?
• What happened in our lives that pushed us to save ourselves for marriage and how do we instill that in our children?
• We have discussed the great importance Jeff's role is in his family, being a spiritual leader?
• How will we keep our kids involved when they get into teenhood?
• How will we discipline our kids?
• What types of activities we want our kids involved in?
• How we would handle our child wanting to quit an activity?
• How we will support our kids academically?
• What will it look like job-wise when we have kids?
• If our kid is bullied, how would we advise our child?

These are just some of the many questions we have discussed. Some of them are still a work in progress. Some of the questions are tough and idealistic, but we are talking and getting on the same page. Plus I love this topic.

In my pursuit to prepare myself for children, I have researched birthing options. I decided that I want to have my child at home. I been a part of several births in a hospital and I have not liked what I have seen. When I decided to research the topic I learned so much about the unnecessary procedures that occur in the hospital. Maybe knowing to much is not good but I want my birthing experience to be natural and calm. I want to have some say it what by body is telling me. I know that if anything happened and I needed to go to the hospital I would. If you are interested I loved the website http://www.givingbirthnaturally.com/ and the documentary The Business of Birthing. Great resources.

Finally my goal is to be a disciplined person. To be consistent in my readings, volunteering, bible study, exercising, journaling, etc. I want to be an example to my children.

Our Promise

I know that it maybe weird my need to prepare for my future. I want to be the best I can and a student of Christ. I want my life to be an example for my future kids!!!!

P.S. I, sadly, look at baby names a lot!!